I read through most of my posts today in a bid to restore some of my joie de vivre. Why, you ask? Well, my family has once again been visited by death and we’re in mourning. However, I am aware that that does not excuse all the long hiatuses I have taken and the fact that I have left this blog, my outlet, to fallow. To be quite honest, I’ve spent the last few years since my Aunt died, battling a deep, dark depression. Actually, if I’m being completely honest, I’ll admit that my depression began much earlier than that, her demise was just the final nail in the coffin. I haven’t been right emotionally for a while. Finding joy is harder. Laughing is not as easy as it was. I don’t love things as deeply because I am afraid to lose them. I am slowly coming out of that, slowly healing, slowly finding love within me again. As I scrolled through the posts earlier, I saw a post where I promised to post on Wednesdays and Saturdays. I obviously never kept that promise but I will do my best henceforth. Now is as good a time as any and I have made my peace with the fact that I might not ever be the same person I once was before death dragged me into this darkness. That’s fine, I will still thrive through it. I’m still here and that’s all that matters. Here are some shots I took this month. I loved them.
- Jacket: Thrifted
- Top & Earrings: Zara
- Pants: Topshop
- Headgear: Individually pinned flowers.
- Makeup & Photography by me